Remedies

Do you know how i feel right now?

How do you feel?

I feel like i was a flame and suddenly someone doused me off with a bucket full of water and ice. I feel cheated and smashed.

That's an awful way to feel. What are you going to do about it?

I'm at a dead end. I feel like going into hibernation. Bury myself in a hole.

Oh! For how long is that?

If possible forever. I hate this world, this life and its occupants. Its totally filled with evil.

Let's self assess what we have.

What's there to assess? I'm not interested in anything!  Please don't try to brain wash me.

I'm sorry. Were you under the impression that I'm brainwashing you? I'm here to help you understand your troubles and live a better life.

I don't think anyone can make me feel better. I was dependent on my husband. Now that he left me for another, there seems to be a vacuum. I'm feeling empty. I don't want to do anything.

Yes, you did say. Can you tell me what you were doing before this?

I am a teacher. I teach children mathematics.

Hmm. I was a teacher too. I find it the most wonderful profession. Did you not enjoy teaching?

I do. I did. Only right now I'm at a dead end. I'm not able to move. I feel frozen.

You're heartbroken. I can understand. Was your marriage good? Were you happy?

Not really. He was often distant. He ignored me. For no reason. I didn't really live a good life.

So what have you got to lose?

I'm hurt. He left without any explanation. I was good to him. I did not shirk any of my responsibilities. I took care of him perfectly. There was no flaws in my duties.

Well, there must be a reason for him leaving. He must have had other needs. There's always a reason for everything. When i lost my husband i thought it was the end of the world. After that, I wasted three whole years, doing nothing.


You did nothing?

I had to go to work. I had to complete my degree. I dragged myself to school and back. I didn't do a good job. I was lucky nobody sacked me. Compassion saved me from being ousted from university too.

Oh! You look so cool. I thought you were trouble free. How did you recover?

I'm not sure how it happened. Maybe i got tired of being stagnant. My friends, my children could be a reason. I can't really remember but what i can recall is my ability to do one work after another. I just kept working.

What kind of work?

Any kind of work. My kids became my most important responsibility. Watching them climb the stairs of life gave me a good kickstart. Having smart, talented kids was a plus point.

My kids are good children too. And i realize I've been neglecting them. Oh! Gosh! I've been pining for someone who hurt me too much and hurt those who have been kind. I'm the most despicable person on earth.

Please don't label yourself as that. The most important thing is to make changes and live life well. Take one day at a time. Help someone everyday.

Everyday?

Yes. You're a teacher. There must be children in your school who need things. Give them food, clothes, education.

That is something i can do. But i feel I'm such a failure. He dumped me. I guess I'm so worthless.

Please look at it this way. When you start helping people you are bound to make changes to their lives. You will see progress in their lives. Small changes in individuals will slowly create big differences in the society. As a teacher every inch of growth in your student will give you enormous happiness.

Yes, I agree with you. Every time a student who has been failing gets through an exam i do feel exhilarated. It gives a change within me.

Exhilaration is a positive feeling. Accumulate it everyday. Children's growth is not only based on marks and exam. Make overall changes. Make a child stand tall. Help him discover himself. That's the most awesome thing that a teacher can do. We are given the power to do creation. Moulding.

Hmm. I always did only what the system wanted me to do. Finish the syllabus. Give exams and mark homework. Never bothered to venture beyond.

Try it. Once you start creating your line of prodigies, your self esteem and confidence will grow. You will also feel more energetic to create more. Then you will realize that you are doing more good now then when you were trying hard to be a good homemaker.

Where i was never appreciated.

Yes. You will discover that your students worship you. They give you respect and love. One day you will realize that perhaps God took away something to allow you to find your strength and help change other people's lives.

Wow! I feel great. I feel like I've been given the role of creator. It's a great feeling. Thank you my friend. You have helped me change my view on my life. I'm going to start making changes immediately.