Hello
Hello, how are you? Great to run into you.
What is it that i find different with you now then before? When did i see you last? Nine months ago?
Yes. I guess so.
You look different now.
I suppose we change as we age!
Oh! Pardon me! I didn't mean it that way. I want to say that you look better now. You look cheerful and more vibrant. You look alive!
Haha! Aren't we all alive? But i must say there are changes in me! I made discoveries.
I see. What kind of discoveries? If you don't mind.
I don't mind. If my experience is going to be of any help to you, I don't mind sharing it with you.
Hmmm.
I think i have never had this being not alive feeling. Except for the time when i lost my senses and was trapped in a delusionary world, I have always continued my duties without disruptions. I was stopped by my internal system which broke down and it was beyond my grasp. Something took over and halted my progress. Only later i discovered the system gave me an overhaul.
Overhaul?
Yes. It gave me rest. Much needed rest. It erased many unimportant data within me and kept only what was needed.
I really don't understand what you're saying.
I'm just saying that when things go beyond our control, our internal system will take over and give us a pause, a rest. I was lucky i identified it and became better.
But i remember you falling back again few months ago. What happened?
Ahh, that! I actually made a mistake. While recovering, I held on to some energies. I thought that was the power, the Sakthi, that's saving me. I gripped tight and tried to save myself. When my outstretched hand was not held and was ignored i became confused. This energy is supposed to grab me, pull me up and save me. Why is it not salvaging me? Why am i being ignored?
You're speaking in riddles again.
Let me put it this way. I became dependent on a friend. To help me. To be my mentor. To save me from all my pains. In the beginning it was great. But as time passed my mentor became distant. I felt i was neglected and badly treated.
I see. You felt let down.
In a way i was let down. Promises were not kept. The friend was a little cruel by ignoring me. So i fell into the hole again.
And you were angry? That smile again.. Why are you smiling?
I wasn't angry. I made new discoveries. I discovered one day, suddenly, I'm relieved that i was ignored. I was glad that i was made to break free. It was a tiring, unfulfilling painful bond. When i suddenly discovered I'm free, I was happier than ever. Thank God, that's over! That was my thought.
How did it happen?
I got diverted. With a new energy. Only this energy isn't too powerful. It's very calm and kind. It consoled me and it saved me.
Ohh! I hope you don't get too involved again.
Definitely not. When you're not looking for anything, you have nothing to find and nothing to lose. We just pass our time with whatever activities we have. We divert ourselves with different things and suddenly we will make discoveries. Discoveries that we made it.
You don't miss your old friend?
No. Not at all. I keep reminding myself with certain souvenirs i have that i should never repeat this error again. Not to ever dirty my feet. Come to think of it, it had been the most miserable thing to happen. The worst way to be treated. I don't want to be treated that way at all ever again. I felt disrespected. It's not a loss for me. It's a blessing.
The lesson here?
Never cling on to anything. Be free. Freedom is happiness.
This new energy?
Is here for now. I'd never crush it in any way. I'd help it grow in every direction. I'd respect it and give it love. See where it goes.
Well. Nice meeting you. Keep in touch.
Sure, will do.
Hello, how are you? Great to run into you.
What is it that i find different with you now then before? When did i see you last? Nine months ago?
Yes. I guess so.
You look different now.
I suppose we change as we age!
Oh! Pardon me! I didn't mean it that way. I want to say that you look better now. You look cheerful and more vibrant. You look alive!
Haha! Aren't we all alive? But i must say there are changes in me! I made discoveries.
I see. What kind of discoveries? If you don't mind.
I don't mind. If my experience is going to be of any help to you, I don't mind sharing it with you.
Hmmm.
I think i have never had this being not alive feeling. Except for the time when i lost my senses and was trapped in a delusionary world, I have always continued my duties without disruptions. I was stopped by my internal system which broke down and it was beyond my grasp. Something took over and halted my progress. Only later i discovered the system gave me an overhaul.
Overhaul?
Yes. It gave me rest. Much needed rest. It erased many unimportant data within me and kept only what was needed.
I really don't understand what you're saying.
I'm just saying that when things go beyond our control, our internal system will take over and give us a pause, a rest. I was lucky i identified it and became better.
But i remember you falling back again few months ago. What happened?
Ahh, that! I actually made a mistake. While recovering, I held on to some energies. I thought that was the power, the Sakthi, that's saving me. I gripped tight and tried to save myself. When my outstretched hand was not held and was ignored i became confused. This energy is supposed to grab me, pull me up and save me. Why is it not salvaging me? Why am i being ignored?
You're speaking in riddles again.
Let me put it this way. I became dependent on a friend. To help me. To be my mentor. To save me from all my pains. In the beginning it was great. But as time passed my mentor became distant. I felt i was neglected and badly treated.
I see. You felt let down.
In a way i was let down. Promises were not kept. The friend was a little cruel by ignoring me. So i fell into the hole again.
And you were angry? That smile again.. Why are you smiling?
I wasn't angry. I made new discoveries. I discovered one day, suddenly, I'm relieved that i was ignored. I was glad that i was made to break free. It was a tiring, unfulfilling painful bond. When i suddenly discovered I'm free, I was happier than ever. Thank God, that's over! That was my thought.
How did it happen?
I got diverted. With a new energy. Only this energy isn't too powerful. It's very calm and kind. It consoled me and it saved me.
Ohh! I hope you don't get too involved again.
Definitely not. When you're not looking for anything, you have nothing to find and nothing to lose. We just pass our time with whatever activities we have. We divert ourselves with different things and suddenly we will make discoveries. Discoveries that we made it.
You don't miss your old friend?
No. Not at all. I keep reminding myself with certain souvenirs i have that i should never repeat this error again. Not to ever dirty my feet. Come to think of it, it had been the most miserable thing to happen. The worst way to be treated. I don't want to be treated that way at all ever again. I felt disrespected. It's not a loss for me. It's a blessing.
The lesson here?
Never cling on to anything. Be free. Freedom is happiness.
This new energy?
Is here for now. I'd never crush it in any way. I'd help it grow in every direction. I'd respect it and give it love. See where it goes.
Well. Nice meeting you. Keep in touch.
Sure, will do.
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