Losses

I am not very happy.

Why? What has happened?

I think i have lost an important person?

Hmm..

And i think i have also hurt her in some ways.

I see. What did you do?

She was getting too attached to me. I didn't like that. I felt it was not too good. So i started ignoring her.

Was there any reason she was getting too close? Did you make any promises?

Yes. I did. You know it's quite common to say things in the beginning? Sweet promises which seem most right. But later..

What kind of promises?

I gave her my word that i will be there in times of pain, I'd take care of her forever and ever.

And..

I acquired other friends. Better, richer friends, with high contact. Who could do things for me. She was just a nice person. Nothing more to it. There was nothing that i was getting from her except kindness and love.

Did you tell her that these are the reasons?

Oh! No! I just ignored her and hoped she'd go away. Finally she did and i feel a little pain in my heart. That i have done her some wrong. In some ways i miss her presence, her kindness.

I'd say the best way to have handled this would have been with honesty. But you chose to play a hide and seek game. You should have told her your point of views and have a clean healthy break. No one can rectify this but you.

There's nothing i can do now. I think she's gone. It gives me a bad feeling. Like I've lost something good. She helped me in many ways. Made me better when i was hurt. Picked me up when times were bad.

Unfortunately for you i guess you decided to select friends from the materialistic point of view. Do you realize that you will age? There will be hurts and pains. You might need people who love you for real to care for you? No one stays young and strong forever. When these weaknesses set in, I guess you're going to regret your loss more.

I'm already feeling blue. It's a loss for me no matter how i look at it.

Hmmm. Materialistic issues, values aren't the most important. Good people are. But you've made your choice. Haven't you?

Yes, in a way, I have.

Then let's look at it from a more positive point of view. Perhaps your choices will not let you down. Maybe you will be on top of the world. So just carry on with life.

Yes i am a very fast forward person. I am moving ahead. Yet, there's this big feeling of guilt. She wouldn't have come my way if i had not lured her. And now she's hurt.

Well, then go make things better.

I don't think she's going to accept any peace offering from me. I have this feeling that she has disowned me from her system. I have lost her for good. She was my lady luck. A lucky charm. I know it now.

I can't do much here except hope and wish things become better for you. And hope all your new friends are good enough to make your life perfect.

Thank you for your time.

You're welcome.