Monday, 11 July 2016

Thinking aloud, alone

I am thinking aloud because i got tired of thinking alone.

Siddarth can go on and on with his stories. The CAT4 evaluation that he attempted this morning. The details with the papers.

Sometimes i don't pay attention. I go into a book. I read my many drafts that had accumulated in the past years.

He doesn't really bother. As long as his chatter is not interrupted.

I'm tired. That's a fact.

Tired physically.

Tired mentally.

What tires me most is the temperaments and tantrums of some. There seems to be no end to it.

How some can just sting, scratch, tear and hurt without the slightest hesitation. One can spit fire just with one stare.

One can take and take without tiring. Not an ounce of thought to give in return.

And I'm trapped in this world of fulfilling people's expectations. There seem to be no end.

Recently i willed God to take me away. To give me a deserving rest. I'm very tired of working. Being alone.

Upon reading this Tj will freak out. Ruby and Siddarth might cry.

But I'm not being selfish. I'm just too tired.



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