The new moon started after 9pm yesterday. In my sleep i discovered a sense of release from a state of surrender.
Standing straight with palms outstretched, eyes closed, I felt lifted out of myself. As i left, the body became light and i felt peace engulf me.
Perhaps this is an aftermath of a meditative exploration. I drift off into meditative moods whenever i feel like it. It gives me peace.
Kids around me say that I've shut down. It's really not shutting down. It's embracing aloneness.
I was not dreaming though. For once there was no dreams attached.
My sleep has always been tortured with dreams. Dreams of snakes, demons and dark flying peacocks that i often feel extremely wretched in the morning.
It had always been blamed on the nightmares of life.
I have no idea. Dreams are totally not in my hands. I always wished they don't come. I'm not looking forward to neither good nor bad ones.
I would embrace a dreamless sleep. It has not happened so far.
Last night there were overlapping dreams of which i cannot recall at all. It doesn't matter as I've been dismissing all of it.
I remember floating and feeling peace. I cannot write about what mystical sight that i exactly saw but I woke up feeling free. Perhaps i do have some hope in finding complete peace.
There is this supreme power that engulfs everything. That much i understood clearly.
I was wondering what could be the reason for this experience.
For every income that i get i would transfer 1% of it to the blind association. I keep putting aside portions of money to be given to single mothers, refugees and neglected children.
I feed many kinds of birds everyday. These are regular activities that I've been doing. Perhaps I'm being blessed for unlatching myself from materialism.
I'm putting this down on paper because i hope others would follow suit. Perhaps peace would reach more people.
For some time i have been reaching out to some in particular to fulfill my happiness. I guess i wasted much time in it.
Happiness is from within. We should not search for it. It just comes when you least expect it.
It's not how i imagined it either. There is no particular shape or size. It's a peculiar feeling of bliss and fulfilment.
I've been getting some emails on some of my writing. Someone asked me if i was a certified counselor and whether my writing is based on real life issues.
Some of it is imaginary. I mix it with facts of life and things i see. I hope change comes to some people somehow.
I'm not a counselor, I have basic education in psychology during university. I know Freud and Pavlov and some. But my best teacher is life and people around me.
Especially the bad ones. I must say thank you to people who stepped on me. If life had been a bed of roses i wouldn't have grown.
There's one particular person whom i think of first thing when i get up and before i go to sleep.
He is a reason i should not fall nor fail.
I'm immersing myself into fasts. One week, two weeks then a month. I might stop writing during that period. I might stop communicating.
My presence is fully based on peace that i feel.
Standing straight with palms outstretched, eyes closed, I felt lifted out of myself. As i left, the body became light and i felt peace engulf me.
Perhaps this is an aftermath of a meditative exploration. I drift off into meditative moods whenever i feel like it. It gives me peace.
Kids around me say that I've shut down. It's really not shutting down. It's embracing aloneness.
I was not dreaming though. For once there was no dreams attached.
My sleep has always been tortured with dreams. Dreams of snakes, demons and dark flying peacocks that i often feel extremely wretched in the morning.
It had always been blamed on the nightmares of life.
I have no idea. Dreams are totally not in my hands. I always wished they don't come. I'm not looking forward to neither good nor bad ones.
I would embrace a dreamless sleep. It has not happened so far.
Last night there were overlapping dreams of which i cannot recall at all. It doesn't matter as I've been dismissing all of it.
I remember floating and feeling peace. I cannot write about what mystical sight that i exactly saw but I woke up feeling free. Perhaps i do have some hope in finding complete peace.
There is this supreme power that engulfs everything. That much i understood clearly.
I was wondering what could be the reason for this experience.
For every income that i get i would transfer 1% of it to the blind association. I keep putting aside portions of money to be given to single mothers, refugees and neglected children.
I feed many kinds of birds everyday. These are regular activities that I've been doing. Perhaps I'm being blessed for unlatching myself from materialism.
I'm putting this down on paper because i hope others would follow suit. Perhaps peace would reach more people.
For some time i have been reaching out to some in particular to fulfill my happiness. I guess i wasted much time in it.
Happiness is from within. We should not search for it. It just comes when you least expect it.
It's not how i imagined it either. There is no particular shape or size. It's a peculiar feeling of bliss and fulfilment.
I've been getting some emails on some of my writing. Someone asked me if i was a certified counselor and whether my writing is based on real life issues.
Some of it is imaginary. I mix it with facts of life and things i see. I hope change comes to some people somehow.
I'm not a counselor, I have basic education in psychology during university. I know Freud and Pavlov and some. But my best teacher is life and people around me.
Especially the bad ones. I must say thank you to people who stepped on me. If life had been a bed of roses i wouldn't have grown.
There's one particular person whom i think of first thing when i get up and before i go to sleep.
He is a reason i should not fall nor fail.
I'm immersing myself into fasts. One week, two weeks then a month. I might stop writing during that period. I might stop communicating.
My presence is fully based on peace that i feel.
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