Friday, 23 September 2016

Dance Steps

Why do you struggle so much? Doing difficult things?

Yes. I am struggling with some difficult things.

I know that. I didn't ask you for an admission. I asked you, why!

For that sense of achievement. Black belt wasn't easy. But on my graduation day, the feeling equaled that of getting a Grammy award.

Don't you feel it's unnecessary? Waste of time? At this age one should sit down more on meditation and prayers.

I pray. My mode of prayers has changed. I just sit and close my eyes. Something lifts me and i become light. Sometimes i even feel detached from my body. That short rest is prayers. I cannot share what i experience from within. That's my sacred secret between God and me.

So, there is God?

I have enough proof for myself to know He exists.

It's a Him?

There's a Him and a Her. The Father and Mother concept and much more. It's unexplainable. You have to discover it yourself.

So the atheist are wrong?

Nobody is wrong. They don't know. They haven't discovered.

How about astrology?

Astrology is about rays and vibes which touch you from the galaxy. It has its effects. That's why days are named after planets. On Tuesday the rays from Mars are directly on us. It affects digestion. You're saved if you eat more vegetables on that day. Or it's even better when you fast! Planets affect people. The time you're born creates you in some ways.

I beg to contradict you.

By all means.

I know of a friend who has another friend. They're born on the same day, almost same time but they're different in status and character. How can it be if they share the same zodiac.

Your friends' features. Are they the same?

How can that be? They're not twins.

That's another aspect. Genes. Mutation. This is where the snake element makes its entry.

Snakes? How in the world?

As i said. These are sacred secrets. Discover for yourself.

No wonder people say you're not too stable.

I can only smile to that. And that's one of the reason why i don't explain everything. Everyone doesn't need to know everything. It's meant to be that one is meant to be ignorant.

I really can't follow you. Back to your difficult hobbies. You often say you're disoriented. Yet you force yourself to learn those dance steps. Why such torture? Don't you feel embarrassed?

Often, I am. I keep making mistakes. What people learn in two takes, I learn in four. Sometimes i forget within the minute. But i progress.

What do you get from it? You're paying for classes. No gain from it.

There might be no monetary gains but lots of others. When you dance you tend to forget your pains. Troubles. It's a different world. It's a diversion. My mind does its own dance with some unknown figure. It's an awesome moment. I'm neither here nor there. I'm in pristine paradise.

Don't people get impatient with you?

I'm lucky. My master is a patient man. He doesn't know about my disorders but he understands my passion. My consistency in practice. He doesn't give up. He gives everyone value for money we pay.

All these make you happy?

Yes. I'm feeding some needs from within. Some dance sessions lift me out too. Into oblivion. I like those mystical feelings.

You are not pulled down by any physical pain? You're almost half a century old?

I don't remember my age unless you remind me. Then I'd forget again. I'm never tired. My muscles are building. Bones become stronger. I become stronger. When there's pain during training it makes me a stronger person. I have not deteriorated in any way.

Your family members don't grudge you for doing all these now?

I've never done anything without my parents' blessings. I'm blessed. My children feel i should do what i want. I'm not hurting anyone in the process. In fact I'm healthier, happier. All but good.

I see. I'm glad you are happy. There have been times you weren't.

Yes. Those are in the past. Time is everything. There's a quote by someone,


Time is the most undefinable yet paradoxical of things; the past is gone, the future is not come, and the present becomes the past even while we attempt to define it, and, like the flash of lightning, at once exists and expires.  

That's true. Thanks for the explanation. Much of it doesn't make sense yet does in an enigmatic way.

You're welcome. Just leave things as it is. If you're meant to know, then you will somehow.






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