A few years ago, someone asked me about retirement. I replied immediately that I love my job and cannot think of such a thing.
But you retired!
Yes, while planning the retirement another person asked me how I'm going to live my life after that.
And..
I remember telling her that I would get a small apartment. It would be really small, with a bath and kitchen attached.
You mean a studio apartment!
Yes. I only wanted a few pots and pans. Some cups and saucers. A moderate refrigerator. Electric stove.
Hmmm..
It must be on the second floor so that I have to walk a bit to get there. With a simple windy staircase. I would live alone. Occasionally entertaining limited friends. But..
But..
See how I am now. Nothing happened that way at all.
You're in an apartment.
Yes, and it's three times bigger than what I imagined it to be.
It is in the second floor.
Hmm true but I'm not alone at all. 8 children. I think this is the messiest house in town.
Well it doesn't matter. I envy you. Look at your days. All of you are bustling from dawn to dusk. I can see you're having a lot of fun.
We're. I am. But it's not easy. It takes a lot of work.
Yes, I can see that. Isn't it fun to be busy like this?
Probably so. Sometimes I get so tired. Then suddenly someone achieves something and my tiredness vanishes. It's replacedby an energy. Jubilation. Victorious energy.
Aren't you lonely?
Lonely! Sometimes I do imagine how it would be if I had a soul mate, someone to do everything with! I used to think Jayan reappearing a changed man. Dancing to my every tune. Fulfilling all my wishes.
I see..
Then I'd remember the many deceptions and the many lies. The waiting around the hours till eyes were dry. I got no answers for all his nonsense. Huhuh, no thanks. I don't think I want to relive that hellhole again.
Perhaps there is someone out there!
Yes, of course there is. There is the cosmic power with His cosmic law. He protects. He loves. At the precipice He would send a solution, a saviour. A child to be changed. A soul to be salvaged.
You're happy with this?
Yes, I am. This is not how it would be forever. A few more years and there will be glorious alone days. With my books. With myself.
You're looking forward to it.
I am working towards it.
I wish you all the best. To get what you want.
And I thank you for that. ☺
But you retired!
Yes, while planning the retirement another person asked me how I'm going to live my life after that.
And..
I remember telling her that I would get a small apartment. It would be really small, with a bath and kitchen attached.
You mean a studio apartment!
Yes. I only wanted a few pots and pans. Some cups and saucers. A moderate refrigerator. Electric stove.
Hmmm..
It must be on the second floor so that I have to walk a bit to get there. With a simple windy staircase. I would live alone. Occasionally entertaining limited friends. But..
But..
See how I am now. Nothing happened that way at all.
You're in an apartment.
Yes, and it's three times bigger than what I imagined it to be.
It is in the second floor.
Hmm true but I'm not alone at all. 8 children. I think this is the messiest house in town.
Well it doesn't matter. I envy you. Look at your days. All of you are bustling from dawn to dusk. I can see you're having a lot of fun.
We're. I am. But it's not easy. It takes a lot of work.
Yes, I can see that. Isn't it fun to be busy like this?
Probably so. Sometimes I get so tired. Then suddenly someone achieves something and my tiredness vanishes. It's replacedby an energy. Jubilation. Victorious energy.
Aren't you lonely?
Lonely! Sometimes I do imagine how it would be if I had a soul mate, someone to do everything with! I used to think Jayan reappearing a changed man. Dancing to my every tune. Fulfilling all my wishes.
I see..
Then I'd remember the many deceptions and the many lies. The waiting around the hours till eyes were dry. I got no answers for all his nonsense. Huhuh, no thanks. I don't think I want to relive that hellhole again.
Perhaps there is someone out there!
Yes, of course there is. There is the cosmic power with His cosmic law. He protects. He loves. At the precipice He would send a solution, a saviour. A child to be changed. A soul to be salvaged.
You're happy with this?
Yes, I am. This is not how it would be forever. A few more years and there will be glorious alone days. With my books. With myself.
You're looking forward to it.
I am working towards it.
I wish you all the best. To get what you want.
And I thank you for that. ☺
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