When you walked in, you totally took my breath away!
Hmm. How did I do that?
You're so beautiful. Look at you. I love the shape of you!
Thank you. That sounds like a song. Your words.
Those tattoos on you?
Yes?
How did you get that?
You mean when?
Yes, when and how?
I have ten tattoos. All over.
Oh! Details, details please.
Well, I cannot give you all the gory details. I had it done in a few phases of my life.
I see.
The very first few were done in Thailand.
You went to Thailand?
I lived there for four years.
Ohh! I really don't know much about you, do i?
Nobody does. I have been quite a mystery. Now that many things have changed i can talk about me.
Tell me how you went to Thailand.
I was 18.
18? That was 15 years ago?
25 years ago. I'm 43 now.
Holy cow! Seriously?
Yup. Back to my story. I was 18. I was restless. I had just finished my high school. My results were nothing to shout about. I had no offers from any colleges nor universities. I was quite bored!
Your parents?
Mother. Single parent. Who slaved herself to put food on our table. She was too busy she wouldn't have noticed anything about me.
That's sad!
Yes, I guess. I pierced all over myself during that time. She didn't even know that!
You never tried to communicate with her?
I would try. She'd sleep off while I'm talking to her.
Ohh!!
Soon i decided to go to work. I went to a saloon. I thought i could manage hair. Perhaps learn to cut and trim. Or at least wash some heads.
You sound cynical!
I've reason to be. That's when my life took a radical twist. Everything changed.
What happened?
I was young and sweet. 18.
I can imagine. Then what happened?
Then, my boss started giving me lots of attention.
How romantic! Was he rich and handsome?
She was rich. She was handsome in a way.
She?
Yes, she. She took me out for dinners and functions. Dressed me up well. Taught me style.
How kind of her.
Not kind. For a reason. She started educating me on physical aspects.
Physical aspects, as in?
Sex. The bodily functions. How i can become powerful with my assets.
Ohh! Was that agreeable for you?
Well, I didn't think much about whether it was agreeable or disagreeable for me. I had no real talents, no papers, no money. I absorbed all that she was exposing to me. I felt excited. Finally I'm going to be somebody important. I wanted to feel big. This seemed to be a good way.
Did it happen that way? In that order? Did you become big and important?
Maybe in the outside i was. Big. Beautiful. Important. The experiences created a new me.
Your experience with?
Clients. My first client was my boss. She had a taste for young girls.
But isn't that very wrong?
I'm not sure what's wrong and right. She had the money. She took care of me. She might have used me in some ways but she didn't abuse me. The abuse came later. Much later.
How did that happen?
She sent me to her next client. Before sending me off she gave me some training. She trained me about how i should serve him. He was her husband.
You make me dumbfounded. Speechless!
He brought me to Thailand. There i had many clients. Mostly from here. I was lucky the foreigners did not bother me. I was almost 19. I was too old for them. They preferred local young girls.
Hmmm..
Life in Thailand taught me many lessons. My boss' husband expected me to do extraordinary feats. When i am reluctant i will be punished.
Punished? Physically?
Yes. Some punishment involves my very private areas. It was unbearable. Some involved days without food. Alcohol was the only nourishment given. Which made me sick.
I'm so sorry for you.
No point in anyone feeling sorry for me. It was my own doing. All of it.
Perhaps, but..
I was sick on and off. Yet i needed to entertain these men and some women. The tattoos were done in order to create extra attraction on certain areas.
Oh! Gosh! Am i supposed to feel excited or repulsed?
For some it can be exciting. For some it might be repulsive. Depending on one's upbringing. Age too. When you're young some things will excite you. When you're older many things would make you want to throw up.
That's quite an awesome wink. From you. Considering what you've gone through.
What i told you is just the tip of the iceberg. From Thailand i went to India.
I see. How did that happen?
CONTINUED IN PART TWO
Hmm. How did I do that?
You're so beautiful. Look at you. I love the shape of you!
Thank you. That sounds like a song. Your words.
Those tattoos on you?
Yes?
How did you get that?
You mean when?
Yes, when and how?
I have ten tattoos. All over.
Oh! Details, details please.
Well, I cannot give you all the gory details. I had it done in a few phases of my life.
I see.
The very first few were done in Thailand.
You went to Thailand?
I lived there for four years.
Ohh! I really don't know much about you, do i?
Nobody does. I have been quite a mystery. Now that many things have changed i can talk about me.
Tell me how you went to Thailand.
I was 18.
18? That was 15 years ago?
25 years ago. I'm 43 now.
Holy cow! Seriously?
Yup. Back to my story. I was 18. I was restless. I had just finished my high school. My results were nothing to shout about. I had no offers from any colleges nor universities. I was quite bored!
Your parents?
Mother. Single parent. Who slaved herself to put food on our table. She was too busy she wouldn't have noticed anything about me.
That's sad!
Yes, I guess. I pierced all over myself during that time. She didn't even know that!
You never tried to communicate with her?
I would try. She'd sleep off while I'm talking to her.
Ohh!!
Soon i decided to go to work. I went to a saloon. I thought i could manage hair. Perhaps learn to cut and trim. Or at least wash some heads.
You sound cynical!
I've reason to be. That's when my life took a radical twist. Everything changed.
What happened?
I was young and sweet. 18.
I can imagine. Then what happened?
Then, my boss started giving me lots of attention.
How romantic! Was he rich and handsome?
She was rich. She was handsome in a way.
She?
Yes, she. She took me out for dinners and functions. Dressed me up well. Taught me style.
How kind of her.
Not kind. For a reason. She started educating me on physical aspects.
Physical aspects, as in?
Sex. The bodily functions. How i can become powerful with my assets.
Ohh! Was that agreeable for you?
Well, I didn't think much about whether it was agreeable or disagreeable for me. I had no real talents, no papers, no money. I absorbed all that she was exposing to me. I felt excited. Finally I'm going to be somebody important. I wanted to feel big. This seemed to be a good way.
Did it happen that way? In that order? Did you become big and important?
Maybe in the outside i was. Big. Beautiful. Important. The experiences created a new me.
Your experience with?
Clients. My first client was my boss. She had a taste for young girls.
But isn't that very wrong?
I'm not sure what's wrong and right. She had the money. She took care of me. She might have used me in some ways but she didn't abuse me. The abuse came later. Much later.
How did that happen?
She sent me to her next client. Before sending me off she gave me some training. She trained me about how i should serve him. He was her husband.
You make me dumbfounded. Speechless!
He brought me to Thailand. There i had many clients. Mostly from here. I was lucky the foreigners did not bother me. I was almost 19. I was too old for them. They preferred local young girls.
Hmmm..
Life in Thailand taught me many lessons. My boss' husband expected me to do extraordinary feats. When i am reluctant i will be punished.
Punished? Physically?
Yes. Some punishment involves my very private areas. It was unbearable. Some involved days without food. Alcohol was the only nourishment given. Which made me sick.
I'm so sorry for you.
No point in anyone feeling sorry for me. It was my own doing. All of it.
Perhaps, but..
I was sick on and off. Yet i needed to entertain these men and some women. The tattoos were done in order to create extra attraction on certain areas.
Oh! Gosh! Am i supposed to feel excited or repulsed?
For some it can be exciting. For some it might be repulsive. Depending on one's upbringing. Age too. When you're young some things will excite you. When you're older many things would make you want to throw up.
That's quite an awesome wink. From you. Considering what you've gone through.
What i told you is just the tip of the iceberg. From Thailand i went to India.
I see. How did that happen?
CONTINUED IN PART TWO
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