Lowly souls- God's children

I am unhappy.

When?

All the time.

Why?

Everyone is scolding me. They pick on me all the time. Life is not fine.

Everyone?

Yes. Including you miss.

Why do i scold you?

I don't know.

You sleep while you cut vegetables. Your children follow suit. Remember you sliced your finger the other day? We had to throw the cabbage away as it was covered with blood from your finger.

I can't control my sleep. I feel sleepy all the time.

When we attended prayers the other day, you were falling asleep. So were your kids. Many people were unhappy to see you all. They felt it was inauspicious. People look down on you. I have to correct you.

I don't want to go there anymore. Those people are snobbish. Just because they're rich they can tell me this and that!

No! It doesn't matter if people are such. You need to change for the better. You need to change. You are your children's example.

I feel such a loser and a burden to everyone. I feel i belong in my old house. Nobody bothered us then.

Yes, that is the place where you slept happily. Your children became uneducated and dull. They were unclean and with rash.

I realize the kids are better but everything is very difficult. I prefer my old life.

Well you need to sacrifice some things for the sake of your children's future.

I wish life was happier.

Let's see how we can make your life better. There are things that you can do.

Yes. Like what?

Every time you are sleepy you walk around. Sleep early. Take a short nap in the afternoon so that you're fresh in the evening.

I can do that.

Let's start with this. We make changes accordingly. Life is meant to be lived well. Happiness is important.

Yes. I agree. Thank you.

Sack on my back PART TWO

 From Thailand i went to India.

I see. How did that happen?

I got pregnant. It was an accident. But that was the biggest turning point in my life.

You became a doted mother?

Not really. I discovered that i got a break from all these torturous routine. My body was given rest.

You said it was an accident. Why didn't you do something about the pregnancy?

I didn't know. As i was small no one realised i was with child. Some people teased me that i was becoming fat but no one connected it to motherhood. By the time discovery was made, it was too late to do anything about it.

Why India?

The current escort at that time was a businessman from there.

That was very kind of him.

Not really. Most of them were upset because this was bad for their business. I was earning quite a bit then. This man decided that i could perhaps continue the escort service in India after the baby is out. If its a girl, better still. She will be trained to follow my steps.

Oh my God! What did you do in India?

I was still an escort for Mr Ram.

Even during pregnancy?

Even during pregnancy. But it was not so tough. I was not sent to others. I felt a little relieved.

Hmm.. Apart from being an escort?

I was assigned to cut some materials. For stitching. It was simple cutting. I didn't even know what clothes it made! While working i used to miss Thailand.

What was there to miss?

I missed the beach. And the fried crab that we ate with cold beers.

We?

Friends. 'Colleagues'. We went to the beach on our scarce break days. With a chaperone of course.

Wah..

It was fun. We used to look at the sea water while sipping cold beers. The tiny fried crab tasted excellent. It was one of the very few stuff i loved.

Sounds scrumptious too!

It was extra fun when they had musical festival along the beach. There'd be so many stalls selling so many things. Those were good moments.

Shopping?

We were not allowed to shop. Just walking around. Some of my friends will eat the fried insects sold there. But i couldn't bring myself to chew something gross like that. They said its an acquired taste!

Yucks!! I can't imagine eating ants and bees!

Not ants or bees. Mostly it was grasshoppers, crickets even scorpions.

Double yucks for that!

:) you're almost turning purple with your yucks..

It's something that i will never do in a million years. That's why. Anyway back to India. What happened next? Apart from missing the beautiful Thailand beaches and crabs.

My delivery date came close and..




To be continued..